Jeremy speaks: "Be With Me Lord"

Jeremy is going to study Life Science in NUS this year; he is zealous and is not afraid to express himself freely for God and infront of the disciples.

Morning Campus!!

Anywayz thanx Ling Pin and Vic for the sharing. For me, it makes me feel more about the role i play as a disciple. How much i've shared the Word with others. How much i've done in discipleship (with my discipler). I will improve and strive to be better, pls be patient with me.

Yup and i must say i m amazed at how much the Vietnamese disciples have to go thru. I'm amazed at their determination! *Salute*.

Anywayz dearest campus, i feel so so sad that i missed the retreat, but im happy becos i see how much all of u have re-charged! how fired up u all are. Awesome! anywayz though im not able to join the retreat, but then i get to hang out and fellowship with the KL & PJ discples. I must say i did get my share of "retreat". I thank God seriously for this time that i have with them. Anywayz of cos this email is not about how much fun i have over there. it's more of about what i've learnt and i really cant wait to share with all of u.

Firstly, as a background info, i was stranded @ the KL bus station on sunday. i rush to the bus station after church service but the bus left without me. My friends were on the bus and they went back 1st without me. I got no choice but to scurry for another tic to come back to s'pore. Though i managed in the end to secure a seat for a 3.30pm bus, but then the feeling is not good either. from 1pm to around 2+pm i was sitting @ the bus station reflecting and calming myself. cos im flooded by negativity.

And during this short period of time i thought of a lot of things. But in the end if i were able to choose again,i) dont go church service and able to come home earlier, not missing the busy) Go church service and missing the bus, i will still choose option ii cos i was so impacted by the sermon that haha, i cried during communion and poor contribution. LOL. So.... i didn't mind missing the bus in the end. wahaha.

1) i feel that God is giving me a very valuable lesson. A lesson about independence. I believe God is putting me in a trial (A minor one) so that i can learn how to react to cock-ups. i mean it's no big deal seriously. if u think about it, miss the bus then buy another tic la. what's the issue. Similarly. sometimes things happen in our lives and we can just slump and just feel so discouarged and don wanna move on / find a better alternatives / tackle the problem.

I feel @ that point of time to rely on God. Inside my head i kept singing the song "Be with me Lord". Cos i know God is by my side. He din leave me. I just have to trust and rely on Him. I learn to rely on Him and believe in Him. For He has my best interest in mind and he's in control and He will hear me when i pray. And this song really gave me strength. and of cos prob solve in the end.

2) During the trip i really felt very discouarged. i mean i i have to endured the constant grumbles and complaints from my friends. I'm so called the organiser. i mean since the month of April i've been planning. from accommodation - transport - prog etc. i mean i really don feel the appreciation from my friends.

I felt a little discouraged. But after i thought about it, i believe God is teaching me another lesson. The ability to lead, plan and organise. This trip definitely honed my skills in this area. i was a councillor and i'm always a little proud about organising events. cos i thought after the training i've been thru im like a pro. Haha. but reality proves otherwise. i have to learn to consult things with others more and not plan things according to my will.

I thank God for this lesson and i really hope i don forget it. :) and.... i appreciate the leaders more and i appreciate my present discipler more too - alfred. For i feel that they are just very great! Sacrificing time for the planning of events and prog. Time devoted to others. In them i see Love. In their actions i see Love. And i wanna give credits to all who have made the retreat a success. Thanx so much! i believe all of us appreciate it!

3) Of cos i get to spend time with the disciples and have a great fellowship with them. not everything is gloomy. u know, initially i wont even be able to attend church service and also not able to spend time with them, becos i initially planned to go Cameron Highland and plan to come back to S'pore in the morning. But then i stayed in KL throughout la (becos of recent landslide case, i cancelled the trip to CH due to safety issues.). i mean I feel that sometimes we can plan a lot of things. But then it's never gonna be perfect. For God has a Bird-eye view on everything. His plan is perfect!

Imagine we are looking at the chess game (of the same level as the chess pieces), we will never have the full picture of what's going on. Sometimes somethings happen for a reason. to be part of God's great plan. We cant / wont understand cos we are looking thru our (Human) eyes. We have to look thru heaven's eyes. So since we cannot look down from heaven yet, we have to trust God that He has the best planned out for us.

4) I'm thankful about the fact i get to spend so much quality time with the M'sia disciples! i felt so loved during fellowship and the hang out. They are very hospitable! they will sms and ask whether i'm safely back in my hostel. They picked me up for church service and bring me around to eat and everything. i mean i give them full marks for hospitality! haha im just so determined to play a much better host next time they come to Singapore!

I mean bros and sis, I marvelled at how much disciples give to others. I feel so warm and encouraged just being with disciples! Cos i never fail to see acts of service, pple giving for one another in the kingdom! This is something so AWESOMLY AWESOME!

Let's cont to be sooo loving and love everyone everyday every second of our life. bros and sis. during my trip i missed u all so much! Anywayz i cant wait to hear ur sharings and insights about the retreat!!! must share with me ok? Haha. Hope i have impacted u all in some ways through my sharings. Wishing u all well.

God bless.