Corrine speaks: "According to God's desire"

Corrine is another wonderful sister from the KL campus ministry, her deep convictions in God's word and steadfast faith has helped her to overcome many personal struggles and encourage those around her.

Well, just want to share a personal good news that happened in my life. During one of the core group meet up, Steven and Fyon were preaching about building our character by focusing on these four areas:

1) Self-discipline – when you do something right even though you don’t feel like doing it.
2) Core values – principles that you hold on to which enable you to make a moral stand.
3) Sense of identity – a healthy realistic self-image that is based on who God created you to be.
4) Emotional security – a healthy emotional that is stable and consistent.

Right after that, we focused on self-discipline and core value every week, such as in which area we want to improve our discipline and in which area that we want to stand firm to. We rated it like how many days we did not make it in the things we want to be discipline and we talked about it in the core group meeting in order to keep each other accountable.

After I read 1 Thessalonians, I felt convicted when Paul asked the Thessalonians to live their lives pleasing in God’s eyes. I started to evaluate my life and found out that most of the time, I am living life according to my own desire rather than according to God’s desire. I decided to put this in building my self-discipline and core value. I record down each day the things that I do according to God’s desire and the things that I do according to my own desire and asked Sim to keep me accountable.

I just started for less than one week, and there are so many things that I have discovered in me! Just few days back, when I was heading to my university, a lot of worries hit me. I sat down in one of the café, and started to write down my prayer, listing out the things that I am worried about. It was out of my expectation that I have so many things to worry about. As I shared to Sim about this, and also things that had been happening these few days, Sim reminded me of how prideful I can be that my pride actually affect my relationship with God and also with others. I knew that I am prideful, but I never really think deep about it as in how much it will affect me.

After the short spending time with Sim, I was grateful because God had put people in my life to keep me accountable, and also to remind me that how much my relationship with God and with others had deteriorated due to the pride in me. I started to realize that how I can always take things in my own hands and do things using my own strength rather than relying on God, and also how I tend to expect people to be like me in certain areas. I feel grateful because God had shown me the areas that I need to watch out to and change.

I find it really helpful by recording down everyday of my life and evaluate how much I have lived according to God’s will and according to my own will, and definitely I want to continue to do so because through this, I can be able to be more aware about my sins and be able to change before I become numb to those sins and eventually die spiritually.

Amen!