Hope

Dear Campus,

Just read a note made by an Indonesian sister, Wulan, who is a diplomat in Frankfurt. She represented the Indonesian Embassy there n has been living in lots of countries before. She is also a strong disciple and her aunt just got baptisted in Indonesia. Think it's just interesting to see a part of her life journey to learn that our situation now is not so bad compared to the old days, and when we fight we'll get through. (provide the original text for the Indonesians :P).

Berapa dari kita, karena situasi dan realita hidup yang menekan kemudian menjadikan kita orang yang sarkastik, pesimis, penuh kemarahan, penyesalan, sakit hati, dan akhirnya menjadi kehilangan harapan? Dan itulah yang terjadi ketika jiwa kehilangan harapan. Itulah kematian jiwa sebenarnya yang menjadikan hidup kita secara fisik juga semakin menderita.

Today, I am reminded of how important to keep on hoping, despite of circumstances looks like or seems to be.

Kadang aku mendengar beberapa teman membanggakan siapa teman-teman mereka waktu sekolah atau darimana mereka sekolah atau keluarga mereka siapa….. Aku? Ketika aku pulang ke Solo beberapa tahun lalu setelah cukup lama merantau di jakarta, ibuku dengan bangga bercerita telah bertemu teman SDku yang bernama Sukinem, di pasar induk, sedang berjualan tempeh dan beranak tiga. Ehemm… Sekarang itu menjawab bukan, kenapa tak satupun teman SD dan SMPku di Solo dapat kutemukan di Facebook. Mungkin seperti Sukinem, teman-temanku entah hidup sebagai buruh di pasar, atau jualan martabak di Pasar jongke, jangankan berharap ber facebook.

Aku masih ingat masa-masa remajaku dengan keadaan ekonomi yang sulit dna menekan. Kalau dikalkulasi dengan realita sekelilingku, aku seharusnya tidak berada dalam posisiku sekarang ini.
Lalu apa yang membuat keadaanku dan Sukinem berbeda? Harapan.

Ayahku memiliki kelebihan dalam menanamkan Harapan ke masing-masing dari anaknya dengan caranya sendiri. Aku ingat ayahku ingin setiap anaknya bisa berbahasa inggris. Padahal ayahku, yang sekolah SDpun tidak lulus tapi hobi nonton film-film barat Ketika ia tidak mampu membeli kamus bahasa Inggris, karena tak berpenghasilan (ayahku menganggur sejak bangkrut toko bukunya di Widuran sewaktu banjir besar terjadi di solo pada tahun 60an), maka ia mengambil kamus dari perpustakaan kotamadya dan mencatat semua kata-kata dalam bahasa inggris untuk dilatih menghapalkan ke delapan anak2nya...setiap hari, agar tidak berakhir seperti dia.

Harapan pula yang menyebabkan --- walaupun kondisi sekelilingku menyuruhku untuk berhenti berpengharapan ---- setelah kuliah S1ku kelar aku berupaya meminta rekomendasi untuk dapat mengambil kuliah lagi sastra atau untuk aplikasi beasiswa S2 di Jakarta atau di Inggris, tetapi ditolak mentah-mentah oleh salah satu dosenku di FKIP, Universitas Sebelas Maret. Aku ingat cemoohannya, bahwa aku seharusnya melihat realita dan tidak banyak bermimpi. Salah satu temanku SDpun yang aku ajak curhat, malahan juga mencemooh dan mengatakan bahwa aku tidak usah berharap terlalu tinggi sebagai perempuan, dan mengingatkan aku untuk tetap tinggal di Solo, dan mengajar di salah satu sekolah SMA atau SMP saja. Itu lebih realistis dengan keadaan ekonomi keluargaku, daripada bermimpi untuk sekolah lagi.

Cemoohan itu memang menyakitkan dan datang silih berganti, tetapi tidak membuat harapan yang ada dalam hatiku lumpuh. Aku terus maju, bersama harapan yang aku miliki, mencari dosen lain yang mau memberikan rekomendasi untuk kuliahku dan terus mencoba mengirim aplikasi beasiswa S2 yang diumumkan di koran termasuk ke Leeds University, Inggris dan juga aplikasi kuliah S2 di Universitas Jakarta. Keduanya memang aku tidak berhasil diterima, tetapi, akhirnya aku memperoleh pekerjaan dan beasiswa kuliah S2 di Universitas Indonesia dan selesai pada tahun 2001.
Kenapa aku ceritakan ini? Realita sekeliling kita kadang-kadang tidak selalu mendukung harapan kita. Dalam sharingku diatas, aku memiliki keinginan baik untuk sekolah lagi, tetapi belum tentu sekelilingku menyetujuinya, bahkan memberi restupun tidak , yang ibaratnya gratis. What is the loss anyway? Apakah upaya-upaya yang kulakukan langsung berhasil? Tidak juga. 

Bagi banyak orang, apabila kegagalan, dan kegagalan terus yang didapatkan, sangat mudah tergoda untuk menyerah, kapok dan berhenti. Dan kegagalan-kegagalan itu mungkin terjadi dalam studi, karir, hubungan, kerohanian dst,. Menyerah adalah pilihan yang mudah dan banyak dipilih orang.
Namun, aku memilih tidak menyerah sebagai jawabannya. Walaupun harga yang dibayar tidak murah dan tidak gampang. Perlu kemauan dan tekad untuk merubah diri juga agar sesuai harapan. Harapan membuat hidup menjadi hidup karena tidak menyerah pada realita.

Aku terinspirasi beberapa pengalaman orang-orang yang terus berpengharapan dan termuat dalam Alkitab;
1. Paulus dan Silas berdoa dan menyanyikan pujian pada Allah di dalam penjara, dengan kaki dibelenggu. Keadaan yang menyakitkan, sulit diterima pikiran untuk tetap bersukacita, kecuali mereka memiliki harapan pada Allah. (Kisah para Rasul 16: 25)
2. Daniel dan 2 temannya (Sadrach, Mesakh dan Abednego) dibakar dalam tungku pemanas oleh Raja Nebukadnezzar sebagai hukuman karena percaya pada Allah dan tidak menyembah dewa, tetapi tetap terus percaya dan berpengharapan pada Allah (Daniel 3: 14-18)
3. Jusuf yang dibuang dan dijual saudara-saudaranya sebagai budak, dikhianati, dilupakan, dianggap mati oleh ayahnya dan dipenjara, tetapi tetap setia dnengan baik dalam pekerjaan-pekerjaannya selama masa penjara itu karena pengharapan pada Allah ( Kejadian 37-41)

My point is harapan itu penting dan harus tetap ada dalam setiap jiwa, karena hidup tanpa harapan, adalah kematian. Mungkin saat ini, kita terjebak dalam keadaan seperti orang lumpuh di tepi kolam Bethesda, tetapi attitude jiwa kita jangan pernah lumpuh…karena bila waktunya tiba, harapan itu menjadi kenyataan…Keep hopeful..and have a cheerful heart. Have a Great Sunday….

Renunganku , Frankfurt, 22 April 2009

How many of us, because of depressing life situations and realities, becoming a sarcastic, pesimistic, full of anger, regret, heart ache ,and finally lose hope? That is what happened when our soul lose hope. That is the real death of soul that makes our lives suffer more.

Today, I am reminded of how important to keep on hoping, despite of circumstances looks like or seems to be.

Sometimes I hear how some of my friends boast about who their schoolmates were or where they went to school or who are their relatives. Me...? When I went back to Solo (a city in Central Java, Indonesia) a few years back after I stayed so long in Jakarta, my mom proudly said that she met my primary school friend Sukinem, in the traditional market, selling tempe (soya bean product like tofu) and have 3 kids. Well... that answers why, none of my primary or sec school friends can't be found in facebook. Maybe like Sukinem, my friends live either as a rough worker in the traditional market, selling traditional pancakes in Jongke Market, don't expect them to even know what facebook is.

I still remembered my teenage years at depressing economy time. If you see the reality around me, I am not supposed to be where I am now.
So what makes my condition and Sukinem's different? Hope.

My dad has the ability of planting hope to each of his children in his own way. I recalled how my dad wants each of his kids to speak English. He didn't even pass primary school education but love to watch english movies. When he couldn't buy english dictionary, coz he didn't have any income (my dad was jobless since his bookshop was bankrupt during the big flood in Solo at the 60's), he borrowed a dictionary from the regional library and wrote all the english words to train his 8 kids memorized all of them... everyday, so we wouldn't end up like him.

Hope also that caused - though the situation told me to quit hoping - after I got my degree, I tried to get recommendation so I could further my study in literature, applied for scholarship in Jakarta or England, but obtain full rejection in my face by one of my prof in my uni in Solo. I remembered his mocking, to see the reality and not to daydream. I told my primary school friend about it, and he/she also mocked me and said I shouldn't have too high hope as a girl, and reminded me to stay in Solo, and just teach in one of the high school or sec school. It's more realistic for my family's economic condition, compared to having a dream for gradschool.

Discouragement was painful and it always came all the time, but it didn't paralyze the hope in my heart. I kept moving forward, with the faith I had, looking for another prof that was willing to give me recommendation and kept applying any master degree scholarship in newspaper, including to Leeds Uni, England and also Uni of Jakarta. I didn't get accepted at both, but finally I got a job and a scholarship for master degree in Uni of Indonesia and finished my master in 2001. 

Why I told you about all this? The reality in our surrounding sometimes doesn't support our hope. In my sharing above, I wanted to further my study, but no one helped me or even gave me encouragement, though giving encouragement was effortless. Did all my efforts successful? Not really.

For most people, when you fail, and you keep on failing, it's tempting to give up and stop. Those failures may happened in your study, career, relationship, spirituality, etc. Giving up is an easy choice a lot of people take. But I choose to not give up thought the price is not cheap and not easy. It takes strong will to change yourself to be what you hope to be. Hope makes you alive coz you don't give up to reality.

I am inspired by some people in the Bible who kept their hope high:
1. Paul and Silas prayed and praised God in the prison, with chained legs. It's painful, and it's not rational to keep being joyful, except if they had hope in God (Acts 16:25)
2. Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego burnt alive in fiery furnace by King Nebuchadnezzar as a punishment for believing in God and not praising idol, but kept to have faith and hope in God (Dan 3:14-18)
3. Joseph, abandoned and sold by his brothers as a slave, betrayed, forgotten and considered die by his dad and prisoned, but kept being faithful with good deeds during his prison times because of his hope in God (Gen 37-41)

My point is it's important to have hope in our soul, because life without hope is death. Maybe right now, we're stuck like the disabled in the pool of Bethesda, but never let our soul paralyzed.. cause when the right time has come, hope will become reality.. Keep your hope ..and have a cheerful heart. Have a great Sunday..

The Making of a Right Relationship with God - Humility

A little something I read for my quiet time today that absolutely pierced me. I feel broken about my pride and am a lot more aware now of the life that I've been leading.

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"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves." Philippians 2:3

 Case Study: Katie Brazelton - Having been duly Humbled.

I remember my cocky attitude many years ago when I was a director of public relations for a very profitable, publicly held company. It was my heyday of wearing expensive clothes and costly jewelry, and being treated well by my employer -- financially and emotionally. I was in the inner circle of those few who got invited to the owner's home for Christmas parties. I had arrived! I think what I loved most about that job was that my opinion counted; I had a voice. The problem was that I wasn't embarrassed to brag about my good fortune. Then, in the blink of an eye, a corporate reorganization occurred as the company was being positioned for sale, and I was "on the streets" looking for a job with many other coworkers. 

It was about that time that someone called me vapor-ware. It was one person's unique way of saying that I only had vapor in the personal Tupperware of my life, that I had nothing to offer. My heart sank. I was humiliated! I knew that statement was not true, but it hurt me deeply to realize that someone that someone thought that poorly of me. What I learnt that day was that cruel humiliation is not God's way, only man's way. What I decided to do about the unkind remark was life-changing. I went on a personal quest to "get real" and fill my plastic life with Christlike substance. I'd say that God used the layoff from a pride-producing job, as well as the humiliating comment, to get my attention and cause me to want to work on building more of him, more humility into my life. For that, i will be eternally grateful.

So, how does one go about becoming humble? Does it require coming from humble circumstances? Or being mortified? Should we endure slander from helping the accused? Or be self-deprecating? All these ways could just easily produce anger, self-righteousness, vengeance, pride, and/or depression.

Humility is a natural result of having an accurate view of who God is and having the right perspective of who you are in relation to Him. Truly humble people compare themselves not with people but with Christ. They realize their sinfulness and understand their limitations. 

On the other hand, they also recognize their gifts and strengths and are willing to use them as Christ directs. A truly humble person will serve God in any capacity, even if he/she doesn't feel particularly gifted in that area. What about the person who dutifully shows up every week to sharpen the podium pencil? Is that person truly gifted in pencil sharpening?? No, she knows that the job needs to be done and doesn't feel that she is above that task or think she should conserve her energy for something more attuned to her talents. How often, hen a church ministry is seeking volunteers, do we hear, "That's not my area of giftedness"? Can that be just another way of saying, "I can get more kudos doing something I'm really good at."?

We may be thinking that humility is something that it's not. We may assume that humility is discovering our inner doormat (when you think you should just be stepped over; pushed over). But Humility is not the same as Humiliation. Humiliation is self-mortification that evokes the sense of being debased, unworthy, shamed. It screams at us that we have done something wrong and are therefore worthless. Frankly, I want to be clear that God loves us too much to ever want us to feel that way; His desire is not to shame us or humiliate us. That is the demeaning work of the Devil. The bible tells us that God honors us; he chooses us; he pursues us; he sacrifices for us; he woos us; he protects us; but never once does it say that he humiliates us. Granted, He does discipline us to get our eyes off ourselves and onto Him, but discipline is not the same as humiliation. =)

Humility can coexist with self-worth, esteem and personal value. Right thinking about yourself in relationship to God is realistic thinking -- a full-orbed picture of your strengths and weaknesses, your actual appearance, genuine talents, negative habits, and real worth. Thinking that your more wonderful than you really are is pride, and thinking that you're more wretched than you really are is false humility, which is another form of pride because it's still self-focused. 

But make no mistake about it: We are God's chosen ones , his prized possessions. 

"No more will anyone call you Rejected, and your country will no more be called Ruined. You'll be called Hephzibah (my Delighted)" Isaiah 62:4 (MSG)

Bottom line, we need to get this false humility versus godly humility versus pride thing straightened in our minds by understanding that our values rests in God, not in ourselves. 

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This was quite a tough QT to swallow but I like these kinds of QTs. Something that I read myself and I can feel convicted by. Gives me a sense of joy that my heart is still soft enough to take challenges. =) 

This was exactly what I needed to to hear. Feel like I've really been living my life quite blindly when it comes to my pride. I guess prideful people don't know they are proud. Which is why it takes a quite a big fall to know that it hurts. 

What convicted me the most from what I read was the last few paragraphs, knowing exactly what humility is. Many times I give myself protection with false humility, thinking of myself as more worthless than dust. It's a bit of an exaggeration and I need to wake up from that. As much as I need to be humble, I also need to be aware of the things I need to change in and not to wallow and be affected so much. I also swing to the other extreme, thinking of myself better than I really am. When awareness sets in, humiliation does too.

 I realize how powerful the Devil can be. But I also know God is more powerful. =) In the many things that I do not do, i miss out on growth because I am afraid and I fear because I am insecure and I fear the comments of others. But I know that God's comments and discipline has far more worth than anything anyone has to say. And I can't be affected by man's words or actions. 

It's been quite an enlightening morning. Please pray for my growth as the first quarter is coming to an end.

Love,

Sera

Sera speaks: "Tough Times, Tougher God" (Lesson from Joyce)

"Troubles come my way, I gotta pray sometimes."

I guess there's a reason why this song was written. To remind us when we're going through a tough time, we gotta be reminded that God is tougher and He can carry us through. We just gotta let Him pick us up. =)

Proverbs 24:10 "If you falter in times of trouble, how small is your strength!"

In most situations when we encounter trouble we're not able to stand firm with nothing to hang on to or rely on. Our bodies and our self made mentalities will never be able to bring us through times of any trouble. Even if we physically get through it, it still effects us emotionally. We can't run from it.

I will be able to overcome my troubles when I put my strength in God. =)

Matthew 6:19-21 "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy and where thieves do not break in and steal. For  where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

We wanna end up being where our treasures are. If they are in heaven, we will end up there, if they are on earth, we will stay here, but we will not receive what is the ultimate prize! =) Where are my treasures? Are they those with eternal cause? Will they last forever?

What are my goals? Do I have eternal plans?

Matthew 6:22-23 "The eye us the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness, how great is that darkness!"

What are my eyes looking out for. What I look forward to or what I keep my focus on is what I will get. It will be how my body is affected. If my eyes see love and compassion, I will be loving and compassionate. If my eyes see wonder, I will be motivated toward good things. What do I allow my eyes to see? Let's not be squnity eyed.

Matthew 6:24-27 "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money. Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you eat or drink;or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feed them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

There are many things in our lives that compete with God. When we become more aware of God we can also be more aware of the other things that we idolize! Am I feeding contempt? What in my life is taking over God? What will cause God to drift further from my life?

We can chuck God aside.

Matthew 6:28-34 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying What shall we eat or What shall we drink or what shall we wear. For the pagans fun after all these things, and your heavenly father knows that you need them. But seek first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

These few verses speak very well for themselves. There's no need for further explanation. =)

Amen!

Sera speaks: "So that others can do the same."

Sera is a theatre production student from LaSalle, she never fails to inspire others around her with her deep convictions and carefree expression of God's love. She's blessed with a beautiful singing voice too!

I actually read the whole of Galatians to refresh my memory a little hee hee. But i'll be sharing from Galatians 1 today. =) In Galatians 1:9 it says,"As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let that person be under God's curse!" I gulped when I read the word Curse. Usually you would see this word a whole lot more in the old testament then in the new. But it really made me realise how even with the new covenant that we've made with God, God is still very firm with the purpose He gave us from when we were first made. Even after Jesus had died on the cross for us and our lives are fill with grace, God still expects us to be firm with ourselves. How we speak, how we act and who we are needs to reflect God's words and how He has transformed us.?

What do people learn from us? How do we portray ourselves to others? Do we inspire them to think about their lives, or better, inspire them to change their lives?

I appreciate Paul when he shared about his life before and after his conversion from verses 11-24.

Paul consistently praises God and gives credit and glory to Him. He always portrays himself as someone unworthy of the grace shown to him by Jesus. But with that attitude, Paul doesn't wallow in his unworthiness. He uses his changed life and the grace given to teach and to inspire others to do the same.

In verses 23-24 it says,"They only heard the report:'The man who formerly persecuted us is now preaching the faith he once tried to destroy.' And they praised God because of him." Personally, I am very inspired by Paul's attitude to his changed life. He was a murderer of christians and a destroyer of churches. I don't think any of us have murdered or destroyed lives. It's definitely humbling for me because I used to wallow and be guilty of the things I've done or have not changed. I didn't have godly sorrow. If Paul could embrace the fact that Jesus was enough to wash away all that he has done in the past, then Jesus is enough to wash away mine. =)?

I can deal with my past and I can be an inspiration to others.?

Let our change help others to do the same. =)

Love you all,

Sera

Alfred speaks: "The Poor Widow"

Alfred is our very cheerful, zealous and fired up brother. He loves children and is always inspiring others with his soft heart towards the word of God.

 

Luke 21:1-4 “¹As he looked up, Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. ²He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins.^[a] 3"I tell you the truth," he said, "this poor widow has put in more than all the others. ⁴All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on."

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 M 1) More than All the others

In church, we give 10% of our allowance or our income as our tithes. If you have $1000, you give $100 and have $900 for yourself. If you have $200, you give $20 and have $180 for yourself. However, for this poor widow, she gave 100%... everything to God.

The bible said that she put in two very small copper coins. How much is that two small copper coins worth in today’s context? If you check the footnotes at the bottom of the page, you will see the Greek word two lepta... How much is two lepta?

According to the World English Bible, Lepta are very small, brass, Jewish coins. Lepta are worth less than 1% of an agricultural worker’s daily wages.

According to another reference, a book title “Life and Times of Jesus the Messiah” written by Edersheim, he stated a denarius is the common pay for a day's work in Jesus' era, a letpon is just a tiny, tiny portion. If a laborer can earn US $100 to $200 in our day, then two lepta is 1/128 of it, that would be US75¢ to $1.50. Due to the recent economic, the US dollar becomes weak. You convert US$1.50 to Sing dollar, it is around S$2. The Widow had only S$2! $2 is all she had! She gave everything S$2 all to God. Can you relate with the poor Widow? I believe many campus students can relate with the poor widow? I believe some of you were in the situation where you only left $2.

Bro & sis, you got to see that the poor widow is different from us... Cause we know that for us, the following month, we will surely get our next month allowance. But for the poor widow, she had no idea where to get the money from... She probably had to beg or loan. She didn’t have a constant income. She lived by faith... She gave all she had and... She trusted the Lord...

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Sa2) Saving up to Give

According to the book, “Life and Times of Jesus the Messiah”, it stated that Two lepta appears to have been the minimum lawful amount of a temple contribution. In other words, in the past, it seemed like 2 lepta, 2 small of copper coins was the minimum amount to give to God. From this, it shows something... it shows that the poor widow didn’t give any small amount... she probably have to SAVE UP to 2 small of copper coins in order to give the Lord.

Bro and sister, our special con is coming. Are you saving up for your special con? Most of us have already pledged of the amount to give for your special con. That is awesome... I really want to encourage everyone to save up and to give of whatever amount that you have pledge. For those, who haven’t pledge, I really want to urge you to pledge. I understand that some of us are financially tight. If we have financial difficulties, the amount of money that we pledge is not the most important. Most importantly, is the sincere pledge to God and try our very best to give to him.        

 

3) Faith Filled giving.  

During my Temasek Poly days, I know of this brother. He was a student like every one of us here. He had savings. Many years ago, when the church announced that they are going to build the church building, he was so excited that he gave $1000 to the church as a campus student. I remembered that the leaders advised him not to give so much as he was young and he may need that money for his future. However, that bro insist on giving. Looking back, the bro did realise that that was an impulsive giving. Because after giving $1000, his family faced some financial difficulties and he had some hard times. Nevertheless, he never regret giving... because he learn something valuable... he learn about faith... He learnt that during his financial low times, God still takes care of him and God has a plan for him. He is still in church. He is a happy man. God has blessed him tremendously. He is grateful to God and he tries his best to help bro and sis who are in need financially.

I will like to end of the poor contribution by asking everyone a question. Have you ever wondered what happened to the poor widow after that? What really happened to the poor widow after she gave everything that she had? If I would ask some of you now, to narrate of what happened to the poor widow after she gave everything that she had... what would that story be? 

I don’t know exactly what really happened to her after that... but I do know that God surely take care of her.

In Conclusion:

Let’s us imitate the incredible faith and sacrifice giving of the poor widow. To God be the Glory.